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Monday, July 10, 2006

since i promised some people that i am going to blog and some people have been visiting my blog pretty often so i shall BLOG. yes i will blog.

i really feel that everything has a dream like quality nowadays. no, i'm not in love. but seriously our view of the world is so super limited. today heard a few NJC people talking about how ny girls are all very this very that. why does the public view ny like that. like that we are the definate leaders later on. i admit most of us are creme la de creme ( as ms koh says) but seriously, as far as i dont like to say it, rgs and other schools also have laot of talent. okay thats crap.

another thing is about the geog test today. i realised that many people are super pissed off cause of the fact that mr lim as absent cause he went to track nationals. he promised us that he will go throught before the test blahblahblah. but think about the times when you have promised and yet you dont live up to them. true, mr lim, as a teacher should take more responsibility and incoperate good morals in us. but people are not perfect. walk a mile in other's shoes before you criticise them. i understand that the test is super difficult and many of us may have failed but we should really try to understand people isnt it? right. and maybe we should all try that. i mean most of us are really talented people. we can talk, hurt and piss people off simultaneously. okay. so it may be lame whatever. but its so totally true. we piss people off everyday and we are still so ignorant. of whatever we do. oh well too bad then. and i dont care who reads this whatsoever.

annabelle: your "theories" are true. whatever they are, they make sense in a twisted convulted kind of way. yes.

recently,
i've decided to change,
and its very sudden and very big.
but i realised.that changing myself
for others is not worth it.
neither is forfieting my life.
OR for that matter, anything else.
its just NOT WORTH ANYTHING.

i totally agree with you.


"Don't Tell Me"
You held my hand and walked me home, I know
Why you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away, yeah

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants
I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

i totally agree. okay SORRY but i know its attituded. WHY DO WE ACT SO MUCH. yes. and i will work hard.

i try hard okay? but i cant succeed. okay thats too bad then.
like i care? NO.
just piss off.
do i even have friends? NO.
do i even bother or it is even WORTH caring for?
NO.
and do miracles relaly happen to someone like me?
NO.
and do i stand up for my own opinions?
NO.
and do i fall for everything i see with out even considering ANYTHING?
YES.

why am i like that? do i even deserve this school called NYGHS? is my existence on Earth solely for the reason of causing trouble in other's life and make people stand out more? like what peole siad about HC choir in COSI BELLO. to make ny choir look proer. i dont care. and i dont care if my parents read this and lecture me. you know fully well that i know EVERYTHING that u lecture me on. yes like, I'M SO SORRY FOR EVERYTHING I'VE DONE. WHATSOEVER. sorry that i cant get an avg okay? whatever.

and please dont ask me to relax or anything. i know getting pissed dont make a diff. who cares? i'll just scream my lungs out okay? like anyone cares.

-pissed

6:17 PM